I am humbled by the people in my life who have been there when I reached out - sometimes really often, sometimes extremely infrequently. Some chose to stay, some chose to leave, but all have been a part of my life.

I wasn’t mentally well. It was bad. I was scared. Though the decision to change was ultimately mine, I might not have made it without all of you even those who I didn’t speak to directly or had only passing, even just on Facebook passing, contact.

I have to keep making the decision to change my behaviour. And part of that is giving as much as I can when I can and still receiving support as much as I can because both are essential to my well being. It’s not a matter of being well enough to stop leaning on others. Relationships are key to longevity more than any other indicator. And since we experience life as a mirror of our internal beliefs and behaviours, our relationship with ourselves is our closest relationship that needs our attention.

My generosity for myself is reflected in my generosity for others. And vice versa. Tolerance, acceptance, loyalty, meanness, and all of the other attributes that can be applied to behaviour are all reflections. My judgment of others is a reflection of my judgment of myself.

All behaviours take practice to make them habit.